an unexpected journey (and why i’m not telling you about it)
Okay okay, I admit that the title is a bit confusing. But I promise this is going somewhere.
My last post goes over my thoughts during the start of this year. A cautiously optimistic girl who just managed to survive the holidays and was met with massive whiplash yada yada. It really does keep piling up though (in a good way).
In the middle of the month I was having a bit of a flair up health wise. I really pushed myself to the limit at the end of the year and my body was NOT HAPPY. But on one random night when I wasn’t feeling well I decided to open up an old program on my computer, look up the first thing that showed up when I searched on google “How to learn x” and got to work. No wasted time trying to find the perfect method. Just click and go. It became addicting, the numbers kept going up and I started to get better. It felt like a game where everything I did was XP points and I had a Pokémon in my head just itching to battle and evolve. This started a cascading effect where I felt motivated to do other things so I could spend more time leveling up and got me out of my rut. Even on days I felt bad, I knew that this project was an easy win and even on days where I felt I was not making progress I also knew that it was part of the process and that no time is wasted.
Wake up, Grind XP, Easy gains.
This leaves me with a lot I could write about. But I’ve been toying the idea of making posts about each subject on their own as these things progress. I suppose it’s technically still in the cards. But, I’ve decided to not do it this soon. One of the biggest pieces of advice someone will give you when trying anything new is to simply not tell anyone. You want to avoid the premature dopamine rush that it can cause and you also don’t want any negative feedback right off the back as a complete beginner. I admit some friends know, but it’s largely because if I didn’t tell them, they'd think I hate them because it’s taking up so much of my time.
The issue is though I’d hate for all this hard work to go to “waste”, so while I will not be talking about the actual project itself for the time being. I will tell you about something related to it. I’m going to start actually making progress videos like I’ve been wanting to for years. Yes, that’s the SMALL part of this project. Just the telling of the journey isn’t the hard part. It’s the thousands of hours I will be dedicating to this project that’s the hard part. Don’t worry, the making of these videos are not the project itself, just an additional motivator to continue. I have lots of things I’d like to learn, write, and talk about slightly more publicly than a blog can provide and that is my motivation. Don’t worry though I’ll have blog posts conveying the same info so you don’t need to cringe any more than you already are.
Expect an update on this particular project in about 3 months. I have 4 videos slash blog posts planned for it and I think it will be interesting to hear the results from someone who doesn't have a lot of time find ways to MAKE time and progress.
On another note, a quick update on my other things!
• I’m almost done with my second personal video, things did NOT go as planned but I know it’s going to be one of my favorites down the line for the lesson I’ve learned in living out the story it tells.
• Nothing new on the super long other project thanks to snail mail. I cant really go into much detail on it for privacy reasons but hopefully when it’s done you can be happy for me anyways!
• Pilates took a massive backseat. I’m still exercising but I started to lose so much weight that I was looking really sick. Some dietary changes are in order I’ll go over that next month.
• Hobonichi is as fun as always. I’ve missed a few days but I’m planning on filling those pages with some ideas I saved from Pinterest that normally you would put in a traditional diary or bullet journal so I’m not upset at all. Wii fit is stagnated too, still awaiting an email. Hopefully that will come soon!
• Other than that I have a meeting for high school soon. Since we will have more time before I get pregnant with #4 compared to our last 3 kids I’m hoping I can speedrun my classes. Unfortunately they’ve been taking so long to speak with me I could have finished them by now. But whatever!
Here’s to February!
-serenity