tired, but I have goals!
It really feels like the past few months have been a blur.
I'm not sure if anyone can truly comprehend the amount of work that goes into holiday preparation until you are a mom yourself. It's a lot of pressure being responsible for your children's Christmas memories. But it's January now so why am I bringing this up?
Well, I think I expended a lifetimes worth of effort on one season. It's January the 6th now as I write this and it is STILL a blur. It's like running on a hamster wheel trying to catch up with everyday life after being thrown across the planet for the holidays. Shopping, decor, two meals in quick succession with 3 kids no sleep and juggling personal goals and daily chores really take the wind out of you.
I'm optimistic, I had the best birthday ever (I'm 20 now which on one hand feels right and wrong at the same time) after a few weeks of despair I think I finally got over the worst part of all this and I've started to enjoy the present. I'm not sure if any of this will ever feel real but I will have the documentation to prove it. I've decided to really take things one step at a time because I simply cannot make improvements everywhere at the same time and make time to take care of myself.
But here are some things Ive done recently despite it all
I finished my first personal video project on my YouTube channel. I can't wait to see how my skills and style improve and I continue to make other videos.
I've started a huge (long, expensive, exhausting, stressful, but worth it) process I've been wanting to do since I was 15 years old. I'm taking new year new me super literally here.
I'm doing more traditional mat Pilates now (I usually use bands but I can't now because it's THAT hard). I LOVE it. Destroying one leg and then having to balance on it while I'm shaking like it's -5 degrees outside just hits different.
I've started journaling and planning in my hobonichi. I actually got the cousin size this year and I'm really enjoying it. I might get better at drawing too since I'm doodling and not obsessing on how it looks since I am drawing using the same pen I write with.
I started my Wii fit merch collection and reached out to a creator in hopes they can help me preserve the official guidebook I ordered. I'll let you know how that goes I've got lots of fun info on that.
Expect me to come back here with some more things that just really bring me joy. But in the meantime I just wanted to throw my good and bad thoughts into this void and get the ball rolling. If there's anything I want more from this year it's to get my spark back. So here's to 2025